Day One n a half
Lately I'm just having anxiety I guess.. secretly. Even today. My tummy calming I guess. It's a bad gamble. Haha I'm just tired of playing games. I'm tired of being extorted mentally. Like I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe everything. I remembered back when I tried to move on from Najmy. It's hard. Like he did nothing wrong other than hooking up with the wrong person. He's looking for a rebound. Tiba ja tuduh. But he keeps searching for Nadya in me. And I build up insecurities inside. While I'm so lonely from my self ostracize. I feel bad for him sometimes. Like I shouldn't have agreed when he wanted to break and be apart. I was selfish? I wonder but I'm growing emotionally dependent on him.. so no matter how much I told myself I didn't wrong. I did wrong. And he did wrong for underestimated him. I guess I probably let him go if I knew. He didn't love me anymore and someone else is occupying his heart. He's over Nadya.. an...